jaehwa

‘Girl, Let me prove that my love is real.
I'll give all my love to you, Please Trust me.’

I looked at JiHae while eating, who were looking at Yoochun, who were acting almost gay with Jaejoong, who only looked at his food with his normal Poker face. Is it just me, or is this really pathetic?

“Yah, oppa. Have you ever fallen in love in first sight?” She said, finally looking at me.

“N-no, I don’t believe in that kind of things…” I said, looking down at my food.

‘I believe...I believe that one can fall in love at first sight.
Though I told you that it wasn't possible.
I only hid this thought from you because I was afraid
that you would look at me as if I was careless and hasty.’

“Of course you don’t. Sometimes even the schools little dolphin can be smart, cant he?” She said, laughing while drinking her coke.

“Haha, yea…” I said, laughing nervously.

Suddenly she hit her hand on the table. “I know! God, I’m smart.” No-oh, I had a bad feeling again.

“What..?”

“You and Yoochun should become friends~” She said, giving me her irresistible puppy eyes.

“WHAT!?” I screamed, making everyone look at us.

“Awn~ You wouldn’t do that for me~?” She said, biting her lip.

I looked at her eyes and sighed. Did I even have a choice?

‘To tell the truth, ever since I met you
I only lived with thoughts of you.
There was only one thing on my mind,
from when I woke up in the morning,
till when I went to bed at night.’

 

As fast as we entered the classroom, I could feel JiHae pull me inside, giving me a light ‘fighting’ before she left.

I looked up and saw Yoochun. Fighting, huh?

I dragged my legs to Yoochun, before giving saying a nervous “Hi.”

Or, at last I THINK I said that.

He looked up, first giving me a shocked face, and then laughing. “Hi.” He said with his slightly dark and manly voice.

Okay, now I got REALLY nervous. What do I do now?

I heard him laugh again, which made me stare at him again.

“I’m Yoochun, and you are?” He finally said.

“I-I’m Junsu, nice to meet you.” I said, giving him a slight bow. Okay, why did I do that?

“Oh, Junsu, I heard about you.” He said. He heard about me? Or more like, WHAT did he hear about me? “You’re the dolphin!” He said.

… what?

“I heard about you from some girls. And I heard that you have a really funny laugh to.”

“O-oh, really?”

“Laugh.” He suddenly said.

“Huh?” I said, not catching what he meant.

“I said laugh, so I know if it’s true or not.” He said, grinning.

“You cant just ask me to laugh.” I said, blinking.

“Em… Knock knock?”

“..what?”

“Knock-knock.”

“…Who's there?”

“Keith.”

“…Keith who?”

“Keith me thweetheart!”

“… Huh?”

“You didn’t get it?”

“No?”

“Damn, Jaejoong was right, I shouldn’t use that one.” He said with a disappointed look.

I looked at him and couldn’t hold back my laughter. Weirdo.

Suddenly Yoochun started to laugh along. “You really have a weird laugh~” He said.

Suddenly I felt a glare and looked at the side. There was no one else then Kim Jaejoong.

If Yoochun was the king for the girls, Jaejoong was probably the king among the guys, despise his feminine face.

First he looked at me, and then at Yoochun. His cold glare gave me shivers.

“I’m sorry for disturbing…” He said, walking away.

“Jaejoong! Its not like that!” He said, standing up. “I’m sorry.” He said to me, before running after Jaejoong.

“Yah!” I heard Changmin’s voice say, which made me turn around.

“Oh, Changmin, hi.”

He looked towards the corridor where Yoochun stood, talking to Jaejoong with a worried face. “Why are you trying to become friend with Yoochun? I though you disliked him.” Changmin said, not turning towards me.

I didn’t answer, which made Changmin turn around and look at me.

“JiHae again, huh?” He said. I only nodded.

He sighed, ruffling my hair.

“She will never understand your feelings if you do this you know.” He said.

I just sighed and looked at him. “Maybe she will understand it someday…”

‘I believe in you...
I will send all my feelings for you through the way I look at you.
Do you know how my heart feels?
How I want to keep the feelings I have for you hidden?
Even the fearful feelings for when you might leave me one day.’

“Junsu-oppa~” JiHae said, suddenly entering my room.

“Yah, you should at last knock!” I said, closing my laptop.

“Aw~ I’m sorry~” She said, jumping up on my bed.

I only sighed.

“But look what I got!” She said, showing up a book with Yoochun on the front cover.

“What’s that..?” I asked, eyeing the book.

“A Yoochun handbook!”

“A what?”

“A Yooc-“

“I got that, but what is it for?”

“It’s a handbook so you know how to act in front of Yoochun!”

“And WHY does something like that even exist?”

“So we won’t mess up in front of Yoochun! I bought one for Jaejoong to, since they say that Yoochun never talks to people that’s in Jaejoong’s black list!” She said happily. What are they, some kind of idols?

“And why did you bring that… thing here?”

“Well, since your going to become friend with Yoochun, you should know these things.”

“I don’t think-“

“Shush, and listen~” She said, as she started to read.

I sighed, feeling a little hurt. How did I get into this mess?

‘Love is a nervous feeling that flutters your heart...
It is like a breathtaking loneliness...’

 

“So! That’s all for today~” She said as she closed the book.

“For today!? Does that mean that there is MORE?”

“Of course~” She said, smiling happily.

‘Please keep looking at me with the same eyes...
Always and forever like this.’

 

“No way~” I said, feeling frustrated.

She giggled and gave me a kiss on my cheek which made me blush.

“Thanks for your hard work~” She said, running out of the room.

‘If only you could stay close enough to me so that my heart can relax...
Just so that I could see you...I would be very happy.’

“Here” I said, giving JiHae Yoochun’s new number.

“Yey~ Thank you~!” He said, jumping up and down happily.

I stared at her. Suddenly something Yoochun had said popped up in my head ‘If there is somebody I love and I want to forget, I try to think of at last 10 things that I really hate about a person. I know some people say it’s the other way, but I tried, and it really helps. Well, at last sometimes.’ 10 things huh..?

“Hey, lets go and eat something nice to lunch today, my treat~” She said, smiling.

Are there even 5 things that I dislike about her..?

‘I believe in you...
I will send all my feelings for you through the way I look at you.
Do you know how my heart feels?
How I want to keep the feelings I have for you hidden?
Even the fearful feelings for when you might leave me one day.’

I looked at JiHae’s face, covered by ice cream.

“You have ice cream on your face.” I said, giggling.

“Eh~ Where?” She said, trying to find the spot.

“Here.” I said, whipping it of with thumb.

‘If I could stay by your, side like this...
If, in the end, it is that I don't know anything about how much I love you.’

 

I looked her in her eyes, and she looked into mine. It was one of this embarrassing moment that you don’t even think.

‘I believe in you...
I will send all my feelings for you through the way I look at you.
Do you know how my heart feels?
How I want to keep the feelings I have for you hidden?
Even the fearful feelings for when you might leave me one day.’

 

“I love you.” I said, shocked by my own words.

‘I can't let you go.
You are the only one in my life.’

THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SOME BOYxBOY LOVE! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

 

‘From the start, you were sweet and simply attracted to me
You’d stay always like that, you said when you first walked up to me
All the possibilities opened up.’

 

I looked at Yoochun. I felt cruel, knowing that I’m using my best friend, but I had a reason, didn’t I?

The exact same reason as Yoochun had when he was with that girl…

 

‘What is love? What! Right now it is Red Ocean.’

 

Yoochun turned to me with a smile. “Am I that pretty?” He said, being full of himself as always.

I faked a smile, and looked away, acting shy. “N-no…”

He hugged me from behind. “Naw~ Look who’s being shy~” He said, giving me a peck on my cheek. “Say that you love me, please?” He said, sounding a bit desperate.

I just acted like I were to shy just to avoid it, even though I know he got hurt by it.

‘I’m breaking my rules again. You know it’s getting boring?
You do get hurt a little bit, it’s all right.’

 

When he understood that he wouldn’t get a answer, he started to kiss my neck.

“Yoochun~ stop it~” I said with my cutest voice, shaking my body a little.

“Haha~ so cute~” He said pinching my cheek. Ouch?

 

‘You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me.
You can’t break out, I got you; under my skin.’

 

Suddenly Yoochun gave me a little box.

“What’s this?” I asked.

“Open it.” He smiled, making me lean against him.

I opened the box, and inside was the clock that I been looking at for the longest time.

I smiled happily. “B-but this is so expensive, I can’t accept it~” I said, looking at Yoochun.

“Take it, its not like I could would wear it anyway.” He said, smiling.

I smiled, feeling a little guilty. He must have worked hard to get it for me.

“Thank you~” I said, giving a fast kiss.

‘You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me.
You are my slave, I got you; under my skin.’

 

He deepened the kiss, pulling me down on the grass.

After a couple of minutes, he pulled out of the kiss and looked me deeply in my eyes.

“Do you really love me?” He asked, tears filling his eyes.

 

‘It nests in your head, the sharp stare.
It’s not me, my unmoving Chrome heart.
This is your choice.’

 

I felt my heart beat faster. My heart were always in denial, but I guess I had to confess, my heart did beat faster sometimes when I was with him. But in my mind, love is such a strong word.

 

‘Flowing through your veins running through you are millions of my Crystal.
Finally, the end of the transformation. The end of my transformation.
This must be love?’

 

I pulled Yoochun down for a kiss, but Yoochun pulled back.

I looked at Yoochun, confused.

He gave me a sad smile and caressed my cheek.

“I love you.” He said, kissing my eye.

 

‘You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me.
You can’t break out, I got you; under my skin.’

 

“Me to.” I said, smiling, still avoiding the word ‘love’.

He smiled before standing up. “Lets go.” He said.

I sat up, and looked up at Yoochun with puppy eyes.

“When we lay down, you had you leg on mine, so now I can’t feel it.” I said, making him laugh.

He turned his back towards me. “Jump on.” He said.

I smiled, accepting the piggy-back ride.

‘You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me.
You are my slave, I got you; under my skin.’

 

“Yoochun, why don’t you stay over?” I said when he putted me down on my bed.

“I shouldn’t, what would your parents think?”

“Nothing, I’m having a friend over. That’s not a crime.” I said, standing up, wrapping my arms around Yoochun’s neck, starting to kiss Yoochun’s cheeks.

 

‘With a single kiss, the day revitalizing, a powerful pull.’

 

“J-Jaejoong, don’t do this…”

“But I want to do it.” I said, finally kissing his lips.

‘The second kiss, it sent a blow to your heart and it feels hot.’

 

“Okay, I stay.” Yoochun said between the kiss, pushing me on the bed.

‘Yeah, I have you! You know you got it!
Yeah, Come on! Come on! I got you; under my skin’

 

I woke up and saw the naked Yoochun next to me.

I smiled and played with his hair, listening to him breathing. He really was handsome.

“Jaejoong…” Yoochun groaned, opening his eyes.

“Good morning.” I smiled

“I dreamed of you.” He said with sleepy eyes.

“Oh, what did we do?” I asked.

He grinned and sat on top of me. “Ill show you what we did.” He said as he started kissing me, touching every possible place on my body.

 

‘In your dreams I order you under my magic spell.
You want to do it again, I got you; under my skin.

My devils ride, you now don’t have a place to breathe.
Let’s have fun now that I have you; under my skin.’

 

I looked in your classroom and saw you chatting with a cute little guy. He laughed, Yoochun laughed. He smiled, Yoochun smiled.

 

‘You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me.
You can’t break out, I got you; under my skin.

You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me.
You are my slave, I got you; under my skin.’

 

No, I was not going to lose you. Normally, I would care less. But there was one thing I decided to never give up on; Yoochun.

THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SOME BOYxBOY LOVE, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!
AND YES, I WONT UPDATE UNLESS I GET AT LAST ONE COMMENT.

 

‘I wish I could fall asleep to the caress of your voice.’

 

“Yah! Yoochun!” I heard Jaejoong yell.

I smiled at his sweet angry voice. “Hey! It’s my woman~” I joked

“1. Stop acting like I’m a girl. 2. Stop act like I’m ‘your’ girl. And 3, When did I become a woman? Weren’t I a ‘girl’ yesterday?” Jaejoong said, putting his hands on his hips.

“Em… Okay, 1. I’ll call you a girl as long as you act like one. 2. I’m the only one that calls you a girl, AND I’m your best friend, that’s why you’re ‘my’ girl. And 3, I decided to be nice and upgrade you to a woman~” I answered, grinning.

He looked at me and sighed.

”Sometimes you just don’t make any sense.” He said, giving me a homemade lunchbox.

And he’s asking me why I’m calling him a woman?

“Oh, I forgot to tell you but I can’t hang out with you tonight.”

“Eh~ why?” I asked, suddenly feeling down.

“Because SOMEONE decide to cheat on Yunho’s beloved sister, and SOMEONE ELSE has to fix the mess.” He said, starting to eat from his own lunchbox.

“Ahahah, sorry, my fault~” I said, actually feeling happy for being the one to blame. “But you’ll come by my house in the morning right?”

“Sure.” He said, standing up. Damn, he eats fast. “Well, I’ll leave now. If the teachers ask for me… flirt with her or something. Bye~” He said, running away.

‘Even on the nights we can't meet, it's like you're embracing me.’

“Chunnie~” I heard Jaejoong whisper in my ears.

He really has to stop doing that.

“Chunnie~” He repeated.

“Arg~” I groaned, hugging Jaejoong, but still not opening my eyes.

‘I know it's you even with my eyes closed.
Your tender warmth... I can sense it.’

“Yah~ Chunnie~ stop being a pervert and wake up~”

I loved the soft way he talked in the mornings, and how he lets me hug him or whatever.

I turned around so that I was in top of Jaejoong. “Shut up and sleep~” I said, still sleepy. Or, more like acting like I was sleepy. God knows what I would do if I opened my eyes and see the extra sexy morning Jaejoong.

‘You're such a beautiful woman.
I want you right now... A world with you in it is a beautiful dream.’

 

“Yah~ we have school~”

“Lets just skip~” I said, inhaling Jaejoong’s sweet smell.

‘You're such a beautiful woman.
I can't help but love everything about you... I'm drowning in the depths of your sweetness.
You're such a beautiful you.’

I heard Jaejoong sigh. “Yah, at last release me~” he said, trying to pull me away.

“No~ Don’t wanna~” I said, finally opening my eyes.

“I can’t sleep with my earrings on~”

“Ah, sorry~” I answered, moving my body away from his when I suddenly discovered a scar on Jaejoong’s neck. “Yah! What’s this!? Who did this!?” I said, looking at Jaejoong while he was taking of his earrings.

“Just some jealous idiots, don’t worry about it.” He said, smiling.

“How can I not worry? Jaejoong, someone hurt you!” I said, standing up.

He just smiled at me. “As long as I have you, I don’t care.” He finally said.

‘You remove your small earrings and your ring too.
You're so graceful, even in your strength to believe in tomorrow.’

I hugged him from behind, still feeling mad at who ever that did this.

He giggled a little and patted me lightly on my head.

I turned my head so I faced Jaejoong’s face. I stared at his lips and…

“You don’t look tired anymore, let’s go to school?” … got my thoughts interrupted by Jaejoong himself.

“Haha~ okay, let’s go.”

‘It's maddening, how you tempt me.
Aren't you even aware of your own secrets?’

I walked to school with Jaejoong, when we saw Yunho.

“There you are.” Yunho said, walking towards me.

“Me..?” I said, shocked. I don’t remember Yunho ever wanting to talk to me.

Suddenly Jaejoong stood in front of me, facing Yunho.

“Yunho, I though we talked about this.”

“No, I want to learn a lesson! He always plays around with girl’s heart. And you still talk to me like I were his girlfriend or something! Get real!”

“Yunho, what are you mad about this time? I though you already came over this.” Jaejoong said, trying to calm Yunho down.

“Just move.” Yunho said, pushing Jaejoong to the side which made him lose his balance and fall.

“Jaejoong! Are you okay?” I said, helping Jaejoong up.

“Nothing happened, I only fell.” He said, smiling.

“But you’re bleeding!” I said, pointing at Jaejoong’s lip.

I knew that I were over reacting, but somehow Jaejoong always seemed happy when I did, so I just continued doing that, no matter how small the problem was.

“I’m sorry…” Yunho said, looking at Jaejoong with sad eyes.

I didn’t like him, at all. He always found ways to get Jaejoong’s attention.

“Don’t worry abo- Yah! Yoochun, were are you pulling me!”

I felt mad, no, jealous. I didn’t want them to talk. I didn’t want Jaejoong to talk to anyone.

“Yoochun, what are you mad about?” Jaejoong said, trying to sound sweet, without sounding to sweet so he won’t catch any attention, if you get what I mean.

I pulled him in to the first empty room I found, and made him sit on the floor.

“Chunnie~” Jaejoong said as fast as he knew that no one could hear us.

I smiled. “You have your first aid kit in your bag, right?”

“Oh, that’s what you wanted. Your over reacting again you know. Nothing will happen if I have a small scar on my lip for a while.” He said, looking happy about it as he handed me the first aid kit.

“You can never be to careful, can you?” I said, starting to clean his wound.

“Well, YOU can.” He joked

I smiled as I stared at Jaejoong’s lips.

‘You're such a beautiful woman.
How should I kiss you? Tell only me... a beautiful world.’

 

I looked Jaejoong in the eyes, and I suddenly leaning toward Jaejoong.

‘You're such a beautiful woman.
It seems this can't be stopped, my baby... Come to my side, feel me.
'Cause you're so beautiful.’

I captured Jaejoong’s lips in my, feeling its softness.

‘Only you possess the meaning of love
And I don't want to let anyone else touch you’

I didn’t expect him to kiss me back, but when he did, I deepened our kiss, tasting every part of Jaejoong’s mount.

‘You're such a beautiful woman.
I want you right now... a world with you in it is a beautiful dream.’

Suddenly the school clock rang, making Jaejoong pull out of the kiss.

“We should go to the classroom…” Jaejoong said, avoiding my gaze.

“Yea, I guess.” I said, trying to make eye contact with him, which only made him stand up and walk out.

I sighed; did I just do something I would regret?

Suddenly I saw Jaejoong turn around with a small but shy smile. “Aren’t you coming?” He said.

 

‘You're such a beautiful woman.
I can't help but love everything about you... I'm drowning in the depths of your sweetness.’

I smiled, maybe I didn’t.

“I’m coming~” I said as I stood up and skipped to Jaejoong.

“Silly.” Jaejoong said laughing a little as he continued walking.

I grabbed his hand and looked him in the eyes.

He turned his head away from me and just when I were going to let go, he held my hand to.

“Silly…” He almost whispered.

‘You are beautiful.
Baby you're special one.
You're such a beautiful dream.
You are beautiful.
Baby you're special one.
You're such a beautiful dream.’

 

I guess even people like me can be happy, cant we?

Yesterday we had my late birthday party, yeeey~

And Pernilla just suggested that I should post some pictures for everyone to see, so well, here we are xD

We started of with making cakes together with Emelie and Bella that bothered coming here early~ mah <3